Long Hair Memory



A comic about my transmasculine experience with hair.

Uploaded May 9, 2023.


A drawing on notebook paper of a longhaired person standing. Their hair is straight and extends down past their midsection. Above them is the title of the zine: Long Hair Memory. Next to the title is the transgender symbol, and Cosmic Ehrhart 2023.
To me, my hair is everything.
I once heard from a friend that getting your hair cut is like a signifier of change.
a drawing of me from march 3 2021, I have a medium length androgynous haircut
a drawing of me from aug 4 2021, I have very short fluffy hair
aug 14 2021, I am facing the camera and expressionlessly posing. My hair is the same length, just styled and smoother.
oct 30 2021, I am dressed as a wizard with a wizard hat, shawl, and dangly star shaped glasses and a facemask. I'm in front of a subaru with the license plate that reads GAY
feb14 2022, I am wearing a mask and glaring at the camera. My hair is only a little longer now I appear more androgynous here than the last two panels.
june 6 2022, I am posing in front of the Chicago skyline. I had just shaved half of my head, and the other half is long and nearly touches my shoulder. I'm wearing a polkadot mask.
aug 28 2022 me and my friend ryro. they had just taught me makeup for the first time and we posed together. my hair is slightly longer than my shoulder. this was one of our last hangouts before i left for Chicago. They are wearing a metal band style t-shirt which reads: black lives matter. they are white with a medium length masculine haircut and a tongue piercing.
sep 20 2022 me and my ex girlfriend naomi. she is wearing round glasses and has a fluffy and long haircut. my hair is nearly as long as hers, going past my shoulders.
mar 25 2023, me and my boyfriend grey. he has long hair that goes past his shoulders, and is dyed pink. the left side of his head is shaved. he is wearing devil horns. he has on a spiked collar and a leather jacket with a wool inner lining. I had just cut my hair short, just above my ears. my hairstyle is straight with little spikes at the ends. this was our first outside date.
april 13 2023. My first company tour. My hair is very short here and I glare at the camera because the sun is in my eyes while I walk to the company. my face is very rund here, and one side of my hair is cut very short
may 9 2023, I am tired, laying on the bed, my hair is a few inches past my hair, and is flying everyone due to severe bedhead. this is the day before final assignments are due this semester.
text drawn with marker: in a way, I think they're right.
growing up as an Asian girl, my hair was everything to my mom. I was a little doll for her and my Lola (filipino word for grandma) a drawing of me in the 4th grade. my hair is straight and bobbed. one piece of hair on the top of my head is tied into a side ponytail, a common hairstyle for younger asian girls.
whenever I'd experiment i'd be called ugly or a witch. a drawing of me in highschool with hair that grew to the middle of my back. my expression is slightly sad and i'm glancing off to the side.
they Hated long hair because I couldn't take care of it, despite them never telling me how. there is a drawing of scissors cutting several chunks of hair.
part of me loves my long hair cuz it's the (word crossed out) I dunno. they hated it. a drawing of me closing my eyes and bowing my head in shame slightly with medium length androgynous hair.
but I also love how manly i look with a fresh trim. a blue sticky note is on the page with a drawing of myself in a cartoony style. I have low eyelids and peach fuzz. I have a haircut that is split down the middle and short.
i dunno. a drawing of myself with a mohawk
thanks for reading my zine, its a little look into my relationship with hair as a transmasculine person.
a stylized cartoon of myself i have darkened upper lids denoting how tired i am, I have a styled and slicked back short masculine hairstyle. i drew myself with fangs. my signature CAE is in the bottom left corner